Why tf* I ever meet you, and why did I ever date you ? You always said these things... If i ever left, I would still be yours, your #1. And where are we now ? you got dem girlfriend. Got your life all together. And what about me ? I just sit here every night, going trough old pictures messages, letters. Oh and lts not forget cry for HOURS. I cant stand it nomore. I wish they would have forbiten it in the first place, us. Then it would have been so much easier to get over you, but right after braking up with you, they make me delete and block you for good! No eventually we will talk again. Im pretty sure about that... ;3 I just dont know when. I mean there are enough other boys to get over you, but im just not ready to take that step, how did you ?! I wonder if I still am in your thoughts sometimes...  Do you ever think about me ? Ever think back ? Ever look back ? Ever care ? Did you actually love me ? And do you now ? I wonder... 

8 Months.... An now we are a year farther from where we started... 22nd. 26th. 31st... (december)

IT IS FINALLY SNOWING !!! waiting on that moment my tv sais: ''Alexandria city schools: Closed tomorrow'' :D 

I had a great weekend with my grandparents, and a beautiful wedding <3 It is now official, *finally* Was kinda glad there werent many people, i was nervous, probably more then they were, hahaha. Did some Christmas shopping the days after, and omg im so tired.... So I hope not to see everyone tomorrow, but sleep and science fair ! 

Anyone who reads this... Im just making this a seperate shorter mini  blog. Please if you follow my blog, leave a comment (: I like to know who is reading and following it. 

Well after being upsad about that person. I got home exciting seeing my grannies again (: Met another really great person ! And now get to bed and get ready for the wedding ^_^ It is goin to be a great day, and weekend !! Did some skyping with mommy, wich was also fun, but depressing, im sorry but why is it so hard to get over your first love ? I feel like it is never going to happen, I mean eventually... It is just every time I look at those pics.. well I guess ima just go to bed and just not think for a moment. I dont have to worry about homework this weekend, I finished it early and got an A on it. So.. got my science fair out of the way for a little, so that is VERY EXTREMELY NICE. (: Yea thats right, I HATE SCIENCE FAIR :D Sjalllazz !

We got our bordeau red stockings hanging and got my xmas wishlist out (: Collected some and im ready for christmas shopping. But before that i wouold love to find out who hacked my old kik acount and loved to talk about how i lost my virginity to my ex U_U Oh btw.. I did not really loose it ! Im still a virgin. Uhg some people are so nolifers. -,- Goodnight, going to finish my 'sweet''killing' science project (: 

I have decided to start a blog. Outta no where (: I dont want to write on facebook, its to much work, and here i feel like it is just me. I just know if im going to write a dairy, someone will read it some point so whats the deal ?! Oh and the reason im writing in english is because half of my social life is english, and the other half is dutch but also knows english. Well i dont really need to introduce myself cause, you will ony be reading this if you know me or you dont care and leave (: One thing, I moved to america for the people who didnt know yet. And it is a really hard move i've made. But also a nice one, it was a new beginning, somewhere i havent been. I had to leave something behind, and then my sister decided to do the same thing. It is almost christmas and all, and that is going to be very emotional for me, but also very fun. Wit my dad and his then.. wife ! Yes thats right they gonna get married this friday !! Not a big fan of my dress but ill get over it, hahaha ~ Oh yea and her sister is also coming. Ima meet her for the first time, so im pretty excited. Not to make this to long, I love food. My bed is my best friend. And Conchita, Fenny and Rianne are the other three ;) They have been there for me trough every single thing. Like in 2013 i found out who truly meant it when they told they were going to be there for me always. And always help me trought things. They have been a good influence on me, nomatter what people think or say about them. There truly good friends, and i do not know what i would do without them. There was one other person i could relay on like that. But yeah we got pulled away for some reason. (: